Take Care Now
My, oh my it has been a long time since I've written here. I've missed transferring my thoughts into keystrokes and spaces, letters and dashes....My life has kept me busy and I am happier now than I ever have been in my life thus far. I know, I know, that is a pretty big statement, but I have no reservations in saying it. And if I should die tonight in my sleep I would die a happy woman with only a few regrets.
My mood has lifted and I am embracing each day tightly, knowing that I am a lucky individual. I have a job, I have a home, I have a magnificent family, and I am loved. Even further, I love without bounds a man who will go down in history as one of the most influential people in my life. No matter what may come.
I am at the beginning of an addiction. Do not fear--it is a very healthy addiction. I am addicted to movement. I am addicted to pushing my body further and further, knowing that there are no limits to what I can do. I stand on the treadmill and I begin the run and I know that I am present, fully present. I kick off from the side and feel the cool water run over me as I swoosh and swish and know that I am fully present. And every day I accomplish a new goal, even if it is just to get up and get moving. I have written exhaustively on my swimming, this topic has been covered. However, my focus has widened and is not so very singular any more. I am in love with the mere movement of my body, no matter what it is doing. I crave it like food addicts crave chocolate cake and cheeseburgers. To those who know me, it sounds absolutely crazy.
I have been a "nester" all of my life--so happy to curl up in my bed and read and watch tv and sleep--never wanting anything more, content, satisfied, and also complacent. I have drive now and it goes beyond just exercise. This drive keeps my mood high and I feel confident that I can deal with anything that comes across my path. In the past I have felt fragile and I think I have been treated just like that, like a fragile woman, ready to break at any moment if the wrong thing was said or done. Now? Now? I am strong. I am motivated. I am singing out loud in the car again. I am pushing my mind as well as my body to stay focused, to stay positive, to enjoy the nuances of life, the little things and the big things.
And it is all about balance I think. I wrote about balance before yes? I think it is so important to have balance in your life. To have as many goals as you do accomplishments, to have as many things to look forward to as you have memories to look back upon, to have as many days of sun as you do rain....I am listening right now to my love singing in his "studio" and there is a smile on my face. He is living out his passions and he is putting a spring into his own step.
In these often dire days we have to take care of ourselves and each other and move towards better things.
My mood has lifted and I am embracing each day tightly, knowing that I am a lucky individual. I have a job, I have a home, I have a magnificent family, and I am loved. Even further, I love without bounds a man who will go down in history as one of the most influential people in my life. No matter what may come.
I am at the beginning of an addiction. Do not fear--it is a very healthy addiction. I am addicted to movement. I am addicted to pushing my body further and further, knowing that there are no limits to what I can do. I stand on the treadmill and I begin the run and I know that I am present, fully present. I kick off from the side and feel the cool water run over me as I swoosh and swish and know that I am fully present. And every day I accomplish a new goal, even if it is just to get up and get moving. I have written exhaustively on my swimming, this topic has been covered. However, my focus has widened and is not so very singular any more. I am in love with the mere movement of my body, no matter what it is doing. I crave it like food addicts crave chocolate cake and cheeseburgers. To those who know me, it sounds absolutely crazy.
I have been a "nester" all of my life--so happy to curl up in my bed and read and watch tv and sleep--never wanting anything more, content, satisfied, and also complacent. I have drive now and it goes beyond just exercise. This drive keeps my mood high and I feel confident that I can deal with anything that comes across my path. In the past I have felt fragile and I think I have been treated just like that, like a fragile woman, ready to break at any moment if the wrong thing was said or done. Now? Now? I am strong. I am motivated. I am singing out loud in the car again. I am pushing my mind as well as my body to stay focused, to stay positive, to enjoy the nuances of life, the little things and the big things.
And it is all about balance I think. I wrote about balance before yes? I think it is so important to have balance in your life. To have as many goals as you do accomplishments, to have as many things to look forward to as you have memories to look back upon, to have as many days of sun as you do rain....I am listening right now to my love singing in his "studio" and there is a smile on my face. He is living out his passions and he is putting a spring into his own step.
In these often dire days we have to take care of ourselves and each other and move towards better things.
posted by Mireille at 7:33 PM
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